Tuesday, August 29, 2006
On fear, confusion, and excitement
Yesterday began a new process for me. One I'm sure will be discussed more than it should be on this blog. I won't go into it right now. I'll just reflect on the raw emotions of my day . . .
- Introversion. I stood in a room of people I should want to be bonding with . . . and I just slipped out. Sometimes, I just stand in a corner and wait for someone to approach me, sometimes I strike up a conversation myself, and sometimes, like yesterday, I just duck out undetected. Now, I've never been the bubbly outgoing life-of-the-party type guy, but I usually hold my own. Not yesterday. Just felt awkward and a little lonely. No "poor me" feelings, just didn't feel comfortable.
- Excitement. Yep, this new thing is gonna be good and envigorating and energizing.
- Fear. I felt scared for the first time in a while. "Crap," I thought, "I just might have gotten in over my head on this one. I wonder if I'm up to this."
- Confusion. I would describe that, but, well, I'm confused.
I'll add to this list soon, I'm sure. For now, I'm getting annoyed at the 15-person sales meeting that just started in the coffee shop I'm in. I was here first, dangit!! Oh well.
