Wednesday, June 09, 2004
Mood swings
That's about as good a description as I could give to my life lately. No, no, I'm not pregnant, nor am I in menapause, nor do I have bipoloar disorder. It may yet prove to be a very natural phase I'm going through, but any explanation that might be offered will not likely prove helpful.
Those who know me reasonably well could tell you that I'm a pretty mellow, easy going, steady sort of chap. Mood swings are pretty unusual.
But over the past month, that's where I've been. At one moment feeling like this whole church planting thing was some big joke. At another, calmly feeling that in pursuing God in a fresh way where I am is rich and meaningful, even if my church planting efforts never produce anything. At another, becoming truly energized when hearing or reading or thinking about the way God has revealed his Kingdom to people I know, and wanting so badly to see that for myself.
I've written many times before about the "angry young man" phase that many in the emerging church go through. I guess I've moved on to the "dazed and confused older man" phase. So if you see me wandering the streets with a far-off look in my eye, talking to the canary in my shirt pocket, just say a prayer for me. I think I'll be o.k., but prayer is never wasted.
