Friday, July 25, 2003
Well, I seem to have successfully navigated the computer bug fairly well. The ants, though, persist. This reminds me of an incident from earlier in my week . . .
After I got out of the shower at 4am to get ready for work, I paused while preparing to put a sock on my left foot. On top of my foot there was a small, almost unnoticeable speck of something. I looked more closely to figure out what it was. The shape was familiar to me, I thought. Then I identified it. It was the tail section of a small creepy-crawly. We call these bugs pincher bugs, but I have no idea what their real name is - long, skinny bugs with an armor type shell, many legs up and down their bodies, and at the end, there's a little claw like a little crab or something. Curious, I thought, to have just gotten done showering and finding a bug part on me. Then I looked a little farther up my leg and I saw a dark smudge, and then another one on my other leg. And then I knew . . . the pincher bug had been hiding out in some random fold of my towel as I showered, and got caught as I toweled off, and then became like a moisturizer to my normally insect-free skin.
At first I was repulsed by the thought, and then in my knack for spiritualizing things, I realized this was a teachable moment for me. How often do I/we think we are doing the right thing - doing the things we think are good for us (like showering), only to find out that we've made a bigger mess of things than when we started? We use our thoughts, our plans, our learned behaviors, our formulas for success, our tools, and we end up with bug guts smeared on our legs.
God's grace is so available, so there for us. I'm so glad to have had this time of sharing with you. Sweet dreams friends.